Ceaser.

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Serenity.

Nope. Not gonna start this post with a copy of the Serenity prayer. But you can see a copy here.

Serenity must be tired of me, because I’ve been chasing it since the day I could comprehend its meaning. But for whatever reason, Serenity will not slow down and allow me to capture it. Hm. Slow down. Maybe I’m the one that has to slow down.

Serenity - “Calm. Peaceful. Untroubled.” That’s the definition my apple highlights gave me when I right-clicked it. Lol. It’s hard to capture serenity, because our very nature is quite obnoxiously opposed to it. The very nature of conscious is such that it places enmity between man and his true self. And here these Christian folk thought it was the Lightbringer’s fault. Ha. Nah, it was unequivocally, you. Lol.

Nevertheless, I’m hardwired to continue chasing it. I chase it through experiences with intimacy. Expereinces with meditation and contemplation. Experiences through substances that make one feel…nice. Experiences through others who have experiences. The funny thing about chasing something so intangible and elusive as serenity is that we don’t have to be consciously aware that it’s what we’re chasing we’re chasing. And often times, it’s not until you find the thing that you know the thing is the thing you always chased.

Talk about epiphanies.