Our Actions Aren't Always Deserving of Success
For a split second there
I thought I expressed 'more nobility' than other human beings. I allowed my conscious mind to believe that, because of my works, my hard work, my ethic, my self-defined ideas of morality, and my commitment to what I consider 'right-doing', I actually deserved something - heck, anything better than my current condition. Boy, did I come to my senses. After all,
- I work my tail off.
- I'm up at 5 every morning.
- I eat moderately well. I'm a stand-up guy.
- I treat people well.
- I work after hours to better myself and my knowledge base.
And therein lies the issue. Just because I think I work hard, and just because I think I've done something moderately well with my life, and just because I want something greater, doesn't mean God (or anyone else) should notice, or give me recompense for sleepless nights, and self-sacrifice. And for a brief period of time, I was upset with the lack of progress in my quest for starting a business. I was upset with the lack of progress in the goals I set for my family. I was upset with the lack of progress as a professor.
As I realize my lowly position as a human being - as we realize our imperfect positions as human beings, we should remember - We aren't owed anything. But we owe everything.